Love-hate relationship

As I mentioned in my post about some of my resolutions I have decided to train for a half marathon.  The first day was awesome. I went in knowing that I was going to rock it and I did. The next day? Wasn't as good as the first, but still not bad. By the third day I was done. 

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The only thing I felt good about that day was the fact that I finished. I didn't feel that runners high afterwards, at all. I took a day off and was back at it after that. It was after that run that my shin splints started coming back. Thankfully, my fellow runner/mother in law got me some compression socks, which have helped a lot. 

I took a week off for no reason in particular (besides laziness..being honest), but went again yesterday. I did not want to go at all seeing how my shins were still hurting while walking. I went anyway and really tried to pay attention to my form. I have read that you are supposed to land on the ball of your feet. I never could tell if I was doing that or not, but after the first mile my legs started to feel fine. 

Although the shin splints are frustrating, I can get around that. The most discouraging thing is how ridiculously TIRED I am while doing it. After I finished yesterday I could not quit yawning! I don't know if it is because I am nursing or what it is. Whatever it is, it is frustrating!! I did some research on running while nursing and I couldn't find any complaints about that, so I'm not sure.

What did happen during my run yesterday was that I entered back into the love part of this relationship. Overall, besides being tired, I felt great. It helps that I didn't have any negativity swarming through my head the entire time...now if I could just get that to happen every time, that'd be great! I am going to boot camp in the morning, so I am hoping that doing something different in between the days that I am running (with some off days, of course) will help me stay in that love part of it!! I am also hoping that it will increase my endurance. While I think it is great that I am running 3 miles, I also get frustrated with the fact that it is only 3 miles! HA! I am so bad at celebrating my success. I might say positive things sometimes, but I it is rare that I truly believe them. It, ahem, could be because I have never stuck with anything physically in my entire life, which is why I would love to actually do it this time. So I am going to keep on keeping on, and I look forward to that next step and putting a 4 at the front of that distance!!