Last March I read Beth Moore's book Believing God while on our cruise. It really hit home for me and started me on a great journey of studying God's word daily. I am sad to say that ended once I found out I was pregnant. First it was because I was so sick I couldn't even read without getting naseous and then I just fell out of it. I decided recently that had to change! How can I expect to REALLY be a good wife, mom, daughter, sister and friend if I don't have my priorities in the right order?
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Therefore, I chose to start reading Believing God again. While reading the first chapter I came across a paragraph that really stuck with me. I'm just going to quote it:
"A few months ago I was taking my usual route on my morning walk when I came upon a simple scene with telling application. Four ducks were splashing in a mud puddle in the sidewalk while a large, pristine pond was just over a small hill. I stopped in my tracks and stared. I felt like God was saying to me, "Beth, that's my church. My blood-bought, Spirit-promised church splashing in a mud puddle with a sea of living waters within her reach. Just on the other side."
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Wow. . .that is me. I have been trying to convince myself these "mud puddles" is where I am supposed to be when all along I knew there was a large pond available to me. It is time for me to make believing God a lifestyle instead of only during the really good and really bad times.
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I really struggle to write this post for two reasons. 1) It makes me feel very exposed. 2)I really struggle to talk about Christianity because I don't feel worthy enough. I tell myself I don't know enough, but that will never change if I don't dive head first into that large pristine pond and soak it in!
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Off to put on my swimsuit ;)
4 comments:
very inspirational kelli! I am going to have to go get that book now! I feel the same way you do-it's hard to "put on our swimsuit" in front of others b/c of embarrassement or a sense of unworthyness! as a side note-connor is so cute and growing too fast!! :)
How funny that you posted that. I have been struggling with the same feelings lately!! It is clear to anyone that knows you that you love God deeply.
i, too, struggle with this...i think we all do! i applaud you for being so transparent! I think of posts similar to these & always back off from posting them. i think it's very evident that you love God and that your priorities ARE in order just by posting this!
Great post Kelli!!! Truly open and honest; I love and appreciate your words!! You live a life full of inspiration my dear and we all know it is the power of God that continues to make it what it is!!
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