Last March I read Beth Moore's book Believing God while on our cruise. It really hit home for me and started me on a great journey of studying God's word daily. I am sad to say that ended once I found out I was pregnant. First it was because I was so sick I couldn't even read without getting naseous and then I just fell out of it. I decided recently that had to change! How can I expect to REALLY be a good wife, mom, daughter, sister and friend if I don't have my priorities in the right order?
Therefore, I chose to start reading Believing God again. While reading the first chapter I came across a paragraph that really stuck with me. I'm just going to quote it:
"A few months ago I was taking my usual route on my morning walk when I came upon a simple scene with telling application. Four ducks were splashing in a mud puddle in the sidewalk while a large, pristine pond was just over a small hill. I stopped in my tracks and stared. I felt like God was saying to me, "Beth, that's my church. My blood-bought, Spirit-promised church splashing in a mud puddle with a sea of living waters within her reach. Just on the other side."
Wow. . .that is me. I have been trying to convince myself these "mud puddles" is where I am supposed to be when all along I knew there was a large pond available to me. It is time for me to make believing God a lifestyle instead of only during the really good and really bad times.
I really struggle to write this post for two reasons. 1) It makes me feel very exposed. 2)I really struggle to talk about Christianity because I don't feel worthy enough. I tell myself I don't know enough, but that will never change if I don't dive head first into that large pristine pond and soak it in!
Off to put on my swimsuit ;)