You know how you have those days as a mom where you feel like everything went right and at the end of the day you are just giddy with excitement about it? Well I had one of those days today.
I'm not so sure that, technically, there was anything different. Honestly, Satan has been preying on me as a new mom. I would see a speck of dirt on the floor and get frustrated with myself and I would feel like a failure. Connor wouldn't cooperate for a picture I had in mind and I would feel like a failure. He wouldn't nap and I would feel like a failure. I would realize it was 1:00 and I still hadn't taken a shower and I would feel like a failure (ok, that one might not be Satan.. that might be truth! ha).
You get the point.
Basically I got fed up with it and finally dropped to my knees yesterday and just prayed for God to help me kick Satan to the curb. Hasta La Vista, BABY!
Basically I got fed up with it and finally dropped to my knees yesterday and just prayed for God to help me kick Satan to the curb. Hasta La Vista, BABY!
Today was one of the few days that I actually felt good about every single thing that happened. And I'm not just talking about Connor. I'm talking about everyday things. For example, we got a call to show the house tomorrow (We had decided almost 2 weeks ago to take it off the market. We have had a whopping 2 showings since Labor Day, so I never dreamed we would have a showing! Oops!) so I knew I had a lot to do. In the past (very near past) I would have probably walked around in circles for a good hour before I figured out a plan. That is SO not me and it has seriously frustrated me to no end! Today, I was much more organized about it and got everything done during his afternoon nap!
Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I expect there to be no dirt on my floors or for Connor to do everything I have in mind (like napping!), but I DO expect for it NOT to tear me down! I'm sure God is thinking, "Well, it's about time she asked for my help." But that is what is so awesome about our God. He is here. ALL.THE.TIME. He is here! He is just waiting on us to invite Him in.
Whew! I feel better. I just had to get that off of my heart.
Now, I will leave you with a video of our little man struttin his stuff down the hallway this evening.
He still can't figure out how to stand up, so that is holding him back from walking everywhere. I cannot believe my baby is standing upright AND walking! Didn't the nurse just lay him on my chest for the first time?!?!
2 comments:
I am right there with you girl! I was in such a funk last week and I KNEW it was Satan preying on me! We as first time moms have so many vulnerabilities that it's hard some days to get out of that funk! So glad you kicked it to the curb!
Yay he is walking!! So big and proud!! Thanks for your honest and encouraging post!
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